(or for those in the US, fall flavors and small favors. i always did find the difference spelling of those words confusing as i straddled the US and Canada)
ok, so it’s been a colorful fall full of falling leaves and red, orange and yellow highlights. it’s the first fall in about a decade that i’ve called my highschool hometown of vancouver, home. i’ve been strolling through streets of breathtaking colors, tromping through puddles with rubber boots and wearing big, thick, heavy sweaters. this is very much the opposite of the nearly naked bikini uniforms i’ve been used to over the past few years. my token tan has faded (i only call it a tan now, as i simply assumed it was the almost natural color of my skin… i was mistaken). and i’ve put on weight. but in this particular case, the weight is welcomed. because it’s the weight of another human being… to be.
with a round, moving belly i’ve been waddling through my to do lists and catching up on things that have been long overdue. i’ve started scanning and cataloguing my over 4000 polaroids from the past 4 years. i’ve begun to put together a collection of fine art originals that will be on exhibit in a gallery in whistler sometime in december. and i have just launched a campaign to raise funds to publish a polaroid book. this is all very exciting. all while growing this being in my belly (the most exciting part, by far).
as the end of the year, and the due date for my little human to be rapidly comes charging at me (he is due on january 1), i feel a slight sense of anxiety. i feel like i am reading the last pages of a very long chapter, in which the new chapter will bring a new era, and everything i’ve just read… experienced… will be so far embedded in the past that it may cease to be relevant anymore. of course it’s paved the way to tell the story of what i’m about to read or experience… but the routine, the familiarity, the “freedom” (as one might call it), will all change.. i know this isn’t true… but i can’t help but feel a clear bold line being drawn in the sand as the distinction of my life as i know it now contrasts to what the future of 2014 and beyond will bring. only time will tell, i suppose.
anticipate the future with excitement and open arms… yes, i can do that. but… to live in the present… to enjoy the moments i have now…. that is my goal – for the moment at hand. so… for now, i am hoping to ask you all for a small favour.
i have launched an indiegogo campaign to publish a book of polaroids – a hardcover journal – called “flutters in utterance”. to view the video that helps explain my vision, please click the following link:
CLICK HERE –> flutters in utterance – a polaroid journal
polaroid by erica chan
i know i can’t make this book happen without the amazing support of my friends and family, so i’m humbly reaching out to ask for your help. support by love, contributions, sharing and spreading the word… all of this is invaluable to me. i am so grateful for you all in my life and i am so thankful that you take the time to read my thoughts and look at my photos. all the help you can give me is truly, truly appreciated.
HERE IS THE LINK TO THE CAMPAIGN. the video can also be seen there. –> http://www.indiegogo.com/projects/531942/wdgi/4794381
with all my heart, erica.